I Love You too much.........

I don't know what happened...
 ...Our parents were good friends ever since we were babies....I didn't know you until elementary days...We started to become friends in sixth grade..then EVERYTHING WENT DOWNHILL FROM THERE.....I started to "like" you in seventh grade...We got friendly...I started to get close with you in eighth grade..In ninth grade ....I started to LOVE you...but then you left..You went out of my life and sooo I closed my heart saying I'll never fall in love with a guy like you again...because I know I'll only regret it....Just recently, I started to watch Korean Dramas..and fell in LOVE with the KPOP star Kim Hyun Joong...My brother comes in and says "Hey doesn't that look like the guy you used to like?" I looked closely and sure enough....I fell in love with Kpop sensation Kim Hyun Joong because he looks exactly like Him..Now everytime I see hottie Kim Hyun Joong or any asian guy I see....I always end up thinking of you and thinking of how my life is like a joke to you...I want to fall in love again but I don't know how...if you keep being in my life like this...Now days, you're with Her and when I see pictures of how happy you are with her...I tell myself to let you be happy ..but deep down in my heart..I know I will never forget...forget how I became friends with you...forget how I fell in love with you...forget how you left my heart..forget how you're with her...forget you...I just don't know what to say or think anymore...because now...I only and always will think of you....Please I just want my life back ..is that too much to ask? yes it is too much to ask why? because I'll ALWAYS LOVE and NEVER FORGET...y.o.u...That right there is my life...my life's story...my life's dream of being with you..I think I love you too much to let you go..to let you be happy with her...I love you too much that you'll only be the burden that's gaurding my heart to fall in love again I love you too much and I sincerely hope that she makes you real happiness...because I could give you soo much more....but I won't because if I love you soo much...I need to let go and let you be happy..I Love You. and for now.....Goodbye.

Love always,
Ku'ulei Yamamoto